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September 30th, 2007
10:24 pm
Just posting for the freaking hell of it.
~K
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December 24th, 2006
11:11 am - So I don't play WoW.....
But this is damn funny...
Tell me if anyone has actually tried this.
http://www.sluggy.com/daily.php?date=060212
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July 24th, 2006
09:22 am - Curiosity
Wish I weren't so...But how to curiosity and patience go hand in hand?
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June 11th, 2006
11:50 pm - Hm.
So, haven't updated in a while. Guess there is nothing much new to say...
One big thing happened...but those of you who bother to read this already know. Steve and I split, and this time it looks like for good. Still wondering if it's a good thing or a bad thing...feeling lonely...but it's to be expected after over 5 years of basically never being apart.
Other than that, life goes on pretty normally. *yawn*
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April 13th, 2005
10:41 pm - Havin' a Honda
I honestly think that owning a Honda has reduced the amount of brain cells I own...
*grin*
Current Mood: slightly evil
Current Music: Will Smith - Switch
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March 6th, 2005
10:44 pm - Yeah, Cars suck sometimes
My car died on me last week Sunday. The general concensus is that I need a new engine. There is no more compression in my engine, so instead of the whirr-whirr-whirr sound when I try to start the car I just get a whirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr sound. It sounds very horrible.
My dad thinks that my timing belt went off and bent my valves. Whatever that means. Other than "My car needs a new engine."
So, anyone know where to find a '95 Mazda 626 engine? Also compatible are engines from '93-'97 from a Mazda MX-6 or a Ford Probe.
Looking to spend under $600 on an engine depending on milage. I already got an offer for an engine at 88,000 miles for $575, but looking for a better price vs milage if possible. Starving college students can't afford expensive things, which is why I'm not considering getting another car vs. just fixing this one up.
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February 17th, 2005
09:19 am
Being sick really sucks...especially when I just got over being sick the week before last...at least this time my illness allows me to EAT. But it's driving me crazy...
My nose won't stop being plugged up and drippy, it's caused a nasal drip which has made the left side of my throat raw and my ear is smarting like a b1tch. This morning I woke up suffocating because some icky stuff went from my nose to my throat and blocked up my entire breathingness...
My lips split, my eyes are swollen but I got over the fever. I just feel really rotten because I missed school the last time I was sick, and I'm missing school again.
I feel like $#1t. Ah, well...at least this time it's not a major illness like last time. Last time I couldn't eat which caused dizzy spells from lack of food.
And yes, some part of me is writing this just because I feel guilty for not dragging my sick ass to school this morning, instead, opting to stay at home and try to stay warm under the covers, which doesn't keep me warm enough, and then deciding to play on the internet when I should be in bed sleeping.
*grin*
I'm going back to bed now.
*coughs and sniffles*
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/angry.gif) frustrated
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February 10th, 2005
02:07 pm
I can understand it. I can. I talk to many people about the feeling, and everyone has been through it. The feeling of being incredibly stupid after doing something they've over and over again promised themselves they wouldn't do.
I know I have to get my head back into my shell...It hurts too much to be worried about him. Being pissed off because he's ruining his own life. It shoudn't matter anymore, I have no real connections to him, so him failing isn't going to affect me any.
But I do care. I care that he has friends who don't respect him. I care that he finds being with them more important than worrying about school. He almost failed last semester, he passed with the good graces of the instructor, and now he goes and hangs out with these "friends" and every night he does, he doesn't go to class the next day for various reasons.
I care enough to have spent some of my aid money to help him out, only to find out that his aid monies went into his car...something he uses to impress these "friends."
I should be able to take a hint by now, that I'm not really worth anything to him but a companion when no one else is willing.
But I don't. I'm stupid. What can I say?
He comes home, upset because of something these "friends" did. He's mad at them and (he hints) mad at himself, since he doesn't want me rubbing it in about these "friends" i've been warning him about. So I comfort him, as much as I want to just be angry and be more like, well you deserved it because you have those kinds of people around you. I comfort him, rub his back, tell him it's okay, etc, etc. And he's mad enough at them to tell me that he's gonna just stay home and cool off when they called to ask him to hang out.
And the next thing I know, he goes back out to be with them.
I feel so stupid and used. Stupid because I promised myself I wasn't going to care. Used because he gets what he wants, and he knows he will when he does things like that, and then he just turns around and gets himself set up for the fall again. And most people understand this emotion, this feeling.
How did you get over it?
Ech. It's not like anyone is really going to read this, so it doesn't matter.
Current Mood: frustrated
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January 31st, 2005
10:02 pm - Amazing
It's really amazing to realize...I'm not afraid of death and dying, I'm afraid of long drawn out suffering until death...
Hm...well, if I become terminally ill, someone have a gun I could borrow? *grin*
Fear is terrible, it just really eats at you inside.
And, oh, yeah, I'm sick of those people who think that material objects make a person. You influence those not as strong as you and make them just as stupid. I am not the money I make or the car I drive or my looks or my clothes. So don't judge me on them.
@$$#013$.
I'm gonna stop ranting now before I offend someone.
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January 21st, 2005
08:37 pm
You know, it's great to come home, jump on the computer, then see that my current SO has messages from girls asking him why he didn't see them last night.
Then I wonder who it is, and check, and he's all about checking them out in bikini's and making passes at them at every chance he gets.
It really pisses me off. I thought that after the whole "problem" I didn't have to worry anymore.
Guess I was wrong. But aren't I always?
I'm stupid, I'm naive so I keep letting myself get hurt.
OH well, it's not like he cares...and he's already said as much.
I hate me.
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January 20th, 2005
02:35 pm
I need to just cool off pretty soon.. I'm running myself ragged trying to keep up...
I'm over-nervous waiting for a call which I know is probably not coming, and if it does, will probably bring only bad news...
And I wanted it so badly.
School is fine...17 credits, all science and one english.
World literature...
I know I want more in life, but what exactly? I'm not sure...Or I won't say.
Well, I guess that's all I want to write now.
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January 11th, 2005
07:08 pm - Hindsight is 20/20
I finally did it...well, sorta. I did something entirely out of character because my book said to. I'm pretty glad I did, I'm just wishing I didn't run off so fast...
I had time to kill...I had time to sit around...but I got so nervous that I held up all the books I just bought for school and told him I had to run...I think what I said verbatim was more like, "I've gotta get outta here."
It was just the initial reaction...I got terrified...but it looked like he was about to say something just as I opened my mouth and said I had to go.
Ah, well...first contact. Should make all the rest easier.
Emphasis on SHOULD.
*grin*
Well, goodnight, then.
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January 7th, 2005
07:04 pm
I'm not so sure I know quite what I am doing anymore.
I'm tired of feeling hurt.
I wish I didn't think at all. No memory. Or anything.
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January 4th, 2005
06:00 pm - Bragging.
Yes, I know I am bragging, but I'm so darn happy! I somehow managed to make the Dean's list last semester! Yay me!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/energetic.gif) ecstatic
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January 3rd, 2005
09:39 pm - Movies
Hmp. I've only seen two worth mentioning right now. The Phantom of the Opera and The Triplets of Belleville.
Phantom is good. Except for some of the singing. I like most of Christine's. But then if you listen enough, you realize that she spends a lot of time way to high for her. The guys just cannot, cannot hit their highs. *shiver* It's enough to make you cringe. Very nice, though. I like the shots.
I love, LOVE the Triplets. It's sufficiently depressing from the beginning, what with a simple home being over run by "progress" to the fact that the grandson doesn't speak a word to his grandmother (or throughout the movie, to boot!) until the very end of the movie, at which time she is no longer alive. But it is hilarious, in it's own.
Most of you probably wouldn't like it. There is very little speaking, and the humor is all in the expressions and the cute little things that are thrown in, like the big dog...he's funny.
"Though I've tried, I've fallen, I have sunk so low." ~Sarah McLachlan "Fallen"
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January 1st, 2005
11:59 am - It's a New Year
Happy New Year to everyone.
I didn't light any fireworks.
I didn't set up my good luck shrine (not that I know how to, either). I just know is has something to do with paper, plants, mochi and a mandarin WITH leaves.
I didn't eat my good luck new year's soup.
I'm such a bad person that I forget all the Japanese terminology here and am too lazy to look it up to sound halfway intelligent.
I did, however, highly enjoy my kinako mochi. Yum.
So, it's a new year. Everyone, well, not everyone, but hoping for a new start. Good luck on any resolutions and I hope this one is better than last for everyone.
And remember, it is now 2005 on your checks.
Current Mood: insert here
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December 26th, 2004
10:50 pm
It really sucks...knowing what I want and being too afraid to try to get/achieve it.
I know what I want, ultimately. I may not be able to place into words what I want at any given time, so asking me is a moot point. Sometimes, I feel unsure of what I want, mostly because I begin to think of the very terrifying process of acheiving it.
But I know what I want.
I just wish I weren't so afraid of being hurt; so afraid of failing.
For some reason, the feelings go hand in hand. I don't want to be hurt, I don't want to fail, so many times I will not attempt things I don't think I can pull off...
Hence why I sit in stagnation, while my life goes past me. In some ways, I am more than content with that. In many ways, I can do this, with the company of the few that I truly trust and love.
I have realized that things come and go and I prefer they rather not come if they are going to leave.
So there are areas of my life that I dislike and am discontent with. There are areas of my life that I look back upon and feel upset about.
There are things I wonder about, things I say "what if...?" to. But to do such things is to lead to unnecessary pain and questioning of motives and hindsight is always 20/20, but that doesn't mean you have to exercise it.
I'm not sure why I'm writing this, for some reason I had the urge to "blurt", to vent and let go for a while.
Who knows? Maybe this will turn into a new years resolution....
Or maybe not.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/sad.gif) discontent
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December 25th, 2004
06:56 pm - Merry Christmas All!
Merry Christmas to everyone! I know that for many of you, I have not given your gifts yet. Sorries. But I still love you and you will still be receiving something.
I hope everyone had an excellent day! I spent most of it sleeping since I had pretty disturbing dreams and didn't get much rest last night.
*grin*
Love you!
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December 23rd, 2004
12:22 pm - Vacation!
Woo! Taking a break from everything...(sorry, Gabe!). Christmas is supposed to be incredibly hectic at the theaters...*grin*
It was bad on Wednesday. I ran in to leave my present for D. and they were so busy that E. almost didn't have time to put the gift in the office for safekeeping.
I do, however, probably work on New Years. Not that bad, I guess.
I hate not knowing when my presents will arrive. I know that christmas mail is terrible, so I am patient, I hope my recipients are.
Still hurting from the accident. I need to take some medicine or something and then see a chiropractor or something like that.
I guess boredom is my biggest threat right now. Relaxation is on my mind.
Ah, well, love you all, and until next time
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December 13th, 2004
01:36 pm
Hm. I saw him today, but I think I still need to work on my issues...That sucks. I nearly felt my heart just drop.
I'm tired of being so afraid, but I think that it is something I need. This fear is merely protection.
*sigh*
Maybe I should just break down and call him already.
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